So I see Mati is online....her youngest is still a few weeks old here so I text to ask if Miss is keeping her up. She calls back and she is hust saying Is Baba Petra therrr...give the phone to Baba Petra....she tells my hubby whose heavy duty it is to tell and hold his hysterical wife! My stomach is where the bulk of the pain was! I remember going into fetal position as the news hit me and feeling like the wind had been knocked out of me. When you get married and you sign up for, for better or for worse you dont forsee a time like this morning a year ago. There is no preparation for this. I thank God for Mati's wisdom., I thank God for my ace husband who knows me well and knew what to do who to call eho I NEEDED there with me. The first responders Mainini and Babamunini Mati's parents, Mom K Dcness Janet, Pastors Mhlangayebe, Pastors Mareya. The warmth and love that landed that morning a year today I believe was just God's way of telling me I would be ok loving her but not having her this side of eternity....He is ever faithaithful, ever dependable...He is Jehovah ADONAI and He has my number. Only He couod heal and mend my heart like He has. It IS well with my soul.